IDCarian

I'm doing pretty well in my new life.  My little cousins are getting more and more annoying but it's whatever.  My style is slowly transforming to be more outgoing and my makeup is beginning to look good and not just there.  I'm working more with my cosplay makeup too, doing a bit of testing here and there and finally working with latex and spray paint, art I never thought I'd get into.  I still need to learn all the different ways of using a sewing machine but I'll work with that over the summer along with getting a job.  I definitely can't complain even though I do miss all my friends and family back in defiance, ik for a fact that I'm goin

idk for sure about my life anymore, it's all mushy and snapped into tiny little pieces and eaten by some ugly ass rats or some shit.  My dad's scaring me and has been following me to school, sayin things on the internet, and just drinking a lot.  My mom and I are getting paranoid about the situation so i may have to move south and live with my uncle because im just too scared of living here anymore.  im suffering a lot of depression, anxiety, and ptsd these days and all I want to really do is end it all.  Sadly im not brave enough to do that nor am I brave enough to hurt my loved ones by committing such an act as, well, suicide.  So i've talk

I'm figuring out a lot about my parents' pasts and I've been thinking that the liar of the two was the honest one for way too long.  My dad has been abusive to my mom, my stepmom, and myself.  My mom always told me that my dad was a scary person to be around and from personal experience for the past 10 years, I finally believe her.  I'm afraid of seeing my dad and he's unaware that what he's been doing to his family is wrong.  He's held guns while arguing with my mom and stepmom about things that don't even make sense, I've seen bruses on both of them and I've heard stories that I couldn't imagine him doing, but I do now after what's been hap